Blessed ...

 

this week my eyes have been opened

...

it is so easy sometimes to get into your little routine

life is back to somewhat normal here in the Ford house

kids are healthy

husband home from deployment

we are starting on some home improvments

er...

finishing some home improvments that i started long ago

kids are doing well in school

paying debt off

adjusting ... attempting to adjust to life without my father

things are good.

really good

and then ...

one day last week my eyes were opened

you see my son Sib has a new bff

and by bff i mean ... joined at the hip ... belly laughing ... can we play everyday

kinda bff

and this child is the kind of child you dream of your child having

as a bff

beautiful manners

tells Sib to be nice to his sister

just brings this light to our home every time he is here

my kids adore him

i adore him

 then this week i discovered that this beautiful child

has no home

this beautiful child goes from homeless shelter to homeless shelter

with his mama and brothers and sisters

night after night

and yet despite his circumstances

despite the fact that he has said his mama gave away all his toys

despite that every time i drop him off he is staying somewhere new

he is joy

he has this beautiful light that just shines

and last night on our way home from dropping him off 

and after stopping to pick up our $90.00 worth of organic food ...

and getting in our perfectly running suv

and getting all my healthy kids buckled in their car seats

and sliding the expensive hand held video game off of my seat

i sobbed

how blessed are we ... how much we take for granted

 every.single.day

and i know this and yet ...

 every.single.day

 i take it for granted

a beautiful home

a solid husband

healthy children

food

money in our account

family

clothing options

we have been tithing to this family we have been praying for this family

this family

needs to feel love

HIS love.

and today i pray that He ... continues to guide

continues to provide

continues to open people's heart

including my own

to just showing HIS love.

"Once our eyes are opened, we can't pretend we don't know what to do. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows what we know, and holds us responsible to act." Prov. 24:12