Choices ...

yesterday i made a decision ...

and let me tell you it was a tough one

you see i got offered an amazing opportunity ...

a fabulous decorating opportunity

one that i have been waiting for

one that some perhaps maybe dream of

but the thing is

is that it also was time consuming

and needed to be done within the next month or so

and even though

i so wanted this

it just isn't the right time

so i made a decision ...

after days of going back and forth

and praying

it became so clear ...

now is not the time

now is the time to focus on my family

now is the time to spend every moment i can with my husband

now is the time to get me together before

i am on my own

yes ... i have made a decision

one of my favorite scriptures is ...

... let your yes be yes and your no be no

Matthew 5.37

you see i knew in my heart way back when i was asked to

do this ... that i should say no

there is just way to much going on now

my husband's deployment, projects we need to do around the house

before he goes, spend time with the kids

but i got excited

i got really excited at the thought of this opportunity

and what it may lead to ...

but deep down ... i knew

and now this morning i realized

you see that is God

that tugging inside... that feeling deep down...

he is attempting to make my path straight

and yet i am trying to do my own thing

not HIS

because when it is HIS plan ... i always know... there is no tugging

there is no hesitation

when it is HIS plan i am amazed at how doors open

yes... this morning i made a decision

xo