Saturday ...

                                                           

                                                          A lazy day here today ...

kids are playing ... i'm finishing up

re-arranging my bedroom

and we are heading to a movie a little bit later

have a great weekend everyone!

xo



A girl ...

there is a girl ...

and she is loved by me

she

in her own spirited way, brings to me what i have been needing

a friendship

a love

a soft place to land

an ear that can sift through my ramblings

a second set of hands with the kids

an eye for junk

an excitement over the perfect rescued find

honesty

REALNESS

a i am who i am kind of attitude

she can come visit on a whim

she can change my day with one comment

she is family

and today i miss her.

these images remind me of her ...

my Kelsey Rose

xo



all in the details ...

i could look at these photos all day ...

taking in every little detail

they inspire me so much

these images are from one of my favorite

Swedish blogs that i follow

i.love.them

have a happy day!

xo



Rejoice ...

i think ...

no actually i know

i am a pretender

i like to pretend that things are great...

i like to pretend that this deployment is all going to be good

that i will not be discouraged ...

pretend that we will not be affected

and yet ...

deep inside... way down i know the truth

we are going to go through ups and downs

we are going to have days of deep lows

days of nothing but heartache and tears

and that... is truth

you see God never says it will all be an easy walk

he says ...

And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God... Not only so

but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know

that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character

and character, hope.

Romans 5:1-5

and today i continue on ...

rejoicing

in my kids ... in the fact that first thing this morning i was able

to hear my husband's voice on the line...

rejoicing in friendships

looking out my window last night to see a friend

scraping off my snow covered car ...

receiving a perfectly timed email of encouragement ...

neighbors shoveling my sidewalks

good girlfriends bringing pizza and Starbucks

friends stopping only to give a quick hug

yes ... today i will continue to REJOICE!

knowing that even on the days of suffering ...

 He is here

He is whispering in the ears of those around me, He is providing

encouragement ... He is doing just as He promised He would

demonstrating His love

xo





Admit one ...

it has been awhile ...

i am adjusting to this new life

and to be honest some days i feel like this is exactly what i need

or deserve ...

a admit one ticket to the 4th floor... the mental ward

but everyday ... i discover more about me

more about my limits...

more about digging deeper than i ever thought i could go  ...

more about my relationships with friends and with family

and

 everyday i learn more about this man whom i love

i have discovered just how much he carries for this family ...

i discover just how much light he brings to us ...

how everyday at 5pm the kids and i both feel this heartache

knowing he is not going to be walking through that door ...

at least not today

...for when i am weak, HE is strong

my intentions were not to turn this into a blog about deployment

or a blog about my personal life

and yet

right now ... it is hard to focus on much else

my thoughts ... my heart ... my days

they are consumed

completely consumed with what can i do today to make

the kids not focus on their dad being gone ...

what can i do today to keep my mind busy so i ...

do not focus on him being gone

and we continue on ...

TRUSTING

OBEYING

STANDING FIRM

on HIS solid ground ... his own words

the ones that say ...

TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND LEAN NOT

ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING

BUT IN ALL YOUR WAYS ACKNOWLEDGE HIM

AND I WILL MAKE YOUR PATHS STRAIGHT.

Proverbs 3:5-6

yes ... we continue on

one day at a time we continue on

xo

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