this week my eyes have been opened
...
it is so easy sometimes to get into your little routine
life is back to somewhat normal here in the Ford house
kids are healthy
husband home from deployment
we are starting on some home improvments
er...
finishing some home improvments that i started long ago
kids are doing well in school
paying debt off
adjusting ... attempting to adjust to life without my father
things are good.
really good
and then ...
one day last week my eyes were opened
you see my son Sib has a new bff
and by bff i mean ... joined at the hip ... belly laughing ... can we play everyday
kinda bff
and this child is the kind of child you dream of your child having
as a bff
beautiful manners
tells Sib to be nice to his sister
just brings this light to our home every time he is here
my kids adore him
i adore him
then this week i discovered that this beautiful child
has no home
this beautiful child goes from homeless shelter to homeless shelter
with his mama and brothers and sisters
night after night
and yet despite his circumstances
despite the fact that he has said his mama gave away all his toys
despite that every time i drop him off he is staying somewhere new
he is joy
he has this beautiful light that just shines
and last night on our way home from dropping him off
and after stopping to pick up our $90.00 worth of organic food ...
and getting in our perfectly running suv
and getting all my healthy kids buckled in their car seats
and sliding the expensive hand held video game off of my seat
i sobbed
how blessed are we ... how much we take for granted
every.single.day
and i know this and yet ...
every.single.day
i take it for granted
a beautiful home
a solid husband
healthy children
food
money in our account
family
clothing options
we have been tithing to this family we have been praying for this family
this family
needs to feel love
HIS love.
and today i pray that He ... continues to guide
continues to provide
continues to open people's heart
including my own
to just showing HIS love.
"Once our eyes are opened, we can't pretend we don't know what to do. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows what we know, and holds us responsible to act." Prov. 24:12